Ramble on about life

Well it seems like i haven't written anything in a few weeks..so i thought id update you a little bit. Today is Valentines day(dumbest Holiday) at least that's what i think. Shouldn't we show love everyday and not make sure we show love on one certain day? Well my day was OK from aside being sick. Got to see my dad side of the family. We don't see them that often. Its hard visiting my grandpa (he's in a nursing home). It sucks leaving him. Every time we left he would wheel all the way to the front door to watch us leave even when he knew we were coming back. I was walking back to the van when i looked back at him through the window to wave goodbye before we finally headed home and all i saw was sadness. Its like he's trapped there and the only way he will get out of there is by death. Its sad saying goodbye and watching him cry every time we leave. The little things in life mean so much to him like when we all brought dinner to him and he was able to see his great granddaughter. His life seems so complete now..its gonna be sad when he's gone. Last Thursday we had an early out so i went out with some friends for lunch than after me and 2 other friends decided to go to Duos. We got our beverages and started our usual talking about gossip when we noticed this guy names romeo and his friend. Ive never meet romeo but Ive heard such good things about him...but we noticed that they were just sitting there together and reading the bible. It was just amazing to see someone that pretty much everyone knows just like us reading his bible and living a faithful life. It was just mind blowing..than when of my friends said i wish we could do that. Ya know just come to a public or even private place and just read my bible with my friends. Than we got thinking we can do this. Its so much easier to learn more about god with others. So were deciding to have a bible study every Monday mornings before school so we can start our week off right. We didn't know what or how exactly to start off our studies. Than we decided to talk about the book crazy love. Most of us have read it and thought it would be a good start. It excites me to know that i can learn more about god with others that are going through the same thing as me! Well going on Ive been going to Wednesday night church but for the past 3 weeks or so i haven't gone well because none of my friends go...i know lame excuse but honestly that's why i use to go. I'm planning to go back even when my friends don't go. That's not why i should even go. I'm gonna keep going but i want more and I'm hoping to get a one on one bible study with somebody ( so if anybody knows who would want to let me know!) Ah that's all i want...i want more of god i want to know more about him!! i want a good relationship with him! I know I'm being greedy but i just want more of him!