Greater things have yet to come...

Wow crazy day feels great to just lay down. I had mime practice today and was extremely exhuasted by the end of the day. Ive been talking to this boy. He's had such a hard past (by what he has told me) Ive noticed that i feel peoples pain. It hurts me to hear about peoples past or present pain. Let me just say this kid is so strong. Even through his hard times he still goes to church. Im pretty sure he has blamed God for some of his problems( i know i sure have). He has met this really great guy in his life that has lead him onto the right path. He now is starting to know about God. Now I have been feeling this pressure to prusue a relationship with him but honestly i feel like Ive come into his life to help him know God. I sure hope so! Well anyway going on with me feeling other peoples pain. I was talking to my mom today and she was telling me about this guy at her work that has parkansin diesse. Its sad he has so family and lives alone. He wants to do this experimental surgery to reverse the diese. But he doesnt have the money to do it. It scares him to even think about death. He's about 50 and has the physical and mental body of a 80 year old person. Im not sure if he loves God but i would just like have people keep him in your prayers. I have been thinking alot about life beyound high school alot lately. Honestly i dont want to go to school anymore i wanna be done. I just want to get married and have kids. I think it would be so great to be a pastors wife. I have had this dream sence i was about five becuase of my best friends parents. They have been so much of an insperation to me. If i do go to college( which is 90% fact that i will) I think i would like to have a degree in socolgy or pyschology. What people are thinking and feeling just intreegs me. After getting a degree i would love to do something in like foster care or adoption. I think that would be my dream. Honestly the hard part would just seeing people go through so much and trying to help them. But them not taking a step to make them better. This last part here goes to my brother. We use to be the best of friends. I looked up to you so much. Why did you have to change. I get that you were growing up but you didnt have to change your personality. Things changed that day. I dont think i can every forget it. I forgive you but you have to put some effort in this relatioship. I know you were embarresed by our siblings and you werent the only one. I was ashamed and didnt know what to do and you werent in the house when it happened. I needed you but you were being selfcentered. You are starting to come back to the family but than you do things like what happened at christmas. I just want to know if your ever gonna change. I want to have a relationship. I just want to know if i should keep caring or just give up