God, Where are you?

Too often I hear people talk guiltily about feeling anger toward God. More often than not, we get angry at God over things over which we have no control. If we don't control it, God must - someone has to be in control!
It may be a failed relationship. Or the death of a loved one. Or our cumulative grief over the on-going HIV/AIDS crisis. Or financial worries. Or any number of things about which we feel we have no control.
And we feel guilty. We feel we shouldn't get angry at God! We worry that God's feelings will be hurt. Or worse yet, God will return our anger - and we all know how much better at being angry God could be!
Nonsense.
I say, Go ahead, be angry at God!
I'm going to be honest with all of you. I went to New Orleans this past week and it literally was hell for me. It was the worst week of my life. I don't understand why something like this would happen. Why me? Why this situation? What's the outcome of this? If God is so good than why is there pain and evil?( I know it because we all sin and suck(that's not a good enough answer for me))Why am I the one feeling pain? Why would you turn the safest places to be the worst place to be?  Why would you use your time for this to happen? How could God allow this to happen? How am I suppose to trust you? Where was God when I needed him?

He said...

I heard this song at the end of a pretty rough day. I'm sure you have all heard this song. It's a great reminder. I've been recently faced with a really tough situation. Many people don't agree with the choice I'm making but there's a reason why I'm doing what I do. It's not becuase I think it's fun, or I  enjoy doing it, or just to rebel, or overall just the thrill of it. I do it becuase I feel called to do it. To do hard things and it's giving me a taste of what I actually am called to do once I move off to college. I want to tell you all that it's going to be ok becuase I know that Jesus has a plan for me. It's reasons bigger than I can understand. It's been a crazy, long, stressful journey, and sometimes I feel like giving up. I know that I can't becuase Jesus is doing great things through me. I know a lot of people say that if it's done by Jesus than he  won't put you in harms way, but what about all the martyrs in the world. They did what exactly what Jesus said and they still died. So than are people saying the people who died for Jesus didn't actually die becuase of him? Is it becuase Jesus doesn't put you in harms way? (If you seriously have an answer to that question please respond)I fear for what might happen to me but I'm ok with it becuase I know if I die I'll go to heaven.

“You may find that life is much like this trek: rocky, hopeless and at times, endless. For this reason you must stay close to the Lord and His love. Know that the Lord is there and no matter what He will heal you from the most insurmountable challenges in your life.”