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I have been given an amazing opportunity!!! I'm really excited and if everything goes through liked plan, then I will be speaking in front of group of young adults older than me on November 13th. I ask you guys for prayer! I pray that God will use me to speak to each individual in the room that night. I'm both nervous and excited to do this. I have a fear of speaking in front of a large group of people. Pray that I won't freeze up in front of everyone. Also I want to know what to say to pierce the hearts of every single person in that room. Prayers are welcome if I didn't mention it enough. If this works out I know this is what God wants me to do! I'm really excited...God is doing great things. We're changing the world and I can feel a move in today's generation already!

Mattoo

It seems like every time I get down about being here God shows me why I'm here. I know it won't just happen, but I want to just have it happen and stop waiting. I see that God is teaching me patients which I have none of right now. After feeling down for most of the week my grandparents came into town and had dinner with my cousin and I. It was great getting together with them and have some family time. After dinner I went back to campus and we had a Halloween party. It was a lot of fun, but very cold I even broke out my winter coat. Around 11 p.m. my cousin and I decided to go to a small party. Yes, it was a drinking but I didn't care. It was pretty classy not to many people and everyone wasn't there to get drunk. They were able to drink with still having a good time without getting drunk. I got talking to this girl there. We started chatting then after a while we started talking about human trafficking. I told her about the program I was helping out with here in Rochester. I told her about backpages.com and showed her all the women selling themselves that day in Rochester and how we report people and stuff like that. She than asked me if I had ever heard of MATTOO? I said yea, I had heard about it, but didn't know much. She than told me her cousin, aunt, and uncle all help out with MATTOO. Her uncle and her cousin are big part in the whole MATTOO company. Ron Hanson | US Director Andrew D. Hanson, M.P.P | Founder & Chairman.  Small world I would say, God still amazes me, I wonder what he has planned? Yesterday, I watch Taken 2. It was great, go watch it if you haven't. Today, in church the pastor spoke of human trafficking. I don't think God could be anymore clear on what I'm suppose to do. We'll see where he takes me.

Today is the day?

After spending fall break at home, I had a hard time coming back. I faced some of my problems going back (didn't solve, but better than nothing?) Monday was hard going to classes all day then working. I composed myself well and made myself think that it's only a with drawl. Tuesday was great no problems had a great mind set. I was determine to have another great day today. I woke up and things got bad. I was still in a positive mind set though. I was sitting in class and I got an encouraging text from a friend of mine. I was right if I thought positive than everything would be great. I was wrong, I got into a argument over something I had no control over what so ever. I was still determined to not let that affect me though, so I went for a run. I felt great after that then got to have a nerf gun war with friends. It was great! After I went and showered and took my roommate to the store with me. We got back and sat down and watched a movie with my R.A. Then I got a message on facebook and a text message that just turned my day around. I packed up my bags and decided to head home. I'm done here I can't do this. Thankfully I have one person here that is looking out for me. She drove to where I was and sat in my car and talked with me for a hour and so how convinced me to come back at least for the night. I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, but I don't feel called here. There has to be a reason I'm here though right? I'm so confused and have lost almost all my faith so far. I give advice about Jesus all the time but don't take it myself. What do I do? Help!

Turn every Victim into a Survivor

I want to update you guys a little about what's been going on. I did end up going to the meeting. Now it wasn't what exactly what I was expecting. Going into this I was hoping for more of a hands on experience. This isn't what exactly I'm getting, but I'm some how still getting a hands on experience. The first meeting was two weeks ago. Since than, we have come up with fundraising ideas, started on our presentations, and taken a class about trafficking.

Yesterday, was when we took the class that pretty much lasted half of the day. It was very intense in your face of what the hard cold facts are about this situation. Now I admit that I already knew much of what they were talking about. The only thing that I didn't really know was the laws helping with this. After taking this class my heart is still in a place where I want more hands on experience helping these kids get out of it. I heard a story of a group of pastors from Cedar Rapids, Iowa that carry guns with them and physically go into the brothels and remove the victims. Now, this is way hands on and I don't know if I want that exactly, but this is more my style.

Last night I had a dream about human trafficking. Before I go into this dream I want to tell you that I have been praying that God helps me understand the victims in this situation. I want to be able to experience what they have gone through so I can help them. I want him to give me the hearts of them. I know crazy who in there right mind would ever pray to become a victim? Me, that's right I prayed it. I don't think I would actually like the real life experience, but I got something close to it in my dream. I don't even know if I should call this a dream or nightmare? Well, this is my dream/nightmare.

The music was bumping and the lights were flashing, the air was covered with a thick layer of smoke. I could barely see my way through the room, in fact I couldn't see five feet in front of me. That's when it happened, he grabbed my hand and said come with me. He took me up to the V. I. P room. He was sweet, offered me a drink and asked if I was ok? We hit it off, it seemed like we had only been talking for five minutes, but in reality it had been three hours. He offered to drive me home, I said yes because I had lost my friends in the midst of the club.

The next few hours were a blur for me, I had way too much to drink and the guy slipped something into my drink. I remember looking out the window passing my house and seeing my friends stumbling into the front door. I was numb I couldn't say anything or do anything. I looked over at the guy and in slow motion I heard him say I'm taking you back to my place. In my head I was thinking I shouldn't I don't even know him, but he's sweet and saved me in the club. Next, thing I remember was  waking up on a twin size bed with one sheet and no pillow. I was in a panic where was I? How did I get there? Who were these people next me? I got up as fast as I could to be knocked down to my feet. My head was pounding and I the worst headache of my life. I was confused what possible could be happening to me?

I'm going to have to end there for tonight...there's a lot more to the dream, but I don't want to get to graphic on here. If you would like to hear more about this dream... feel free to contact me or I can write another post about the whole thing. I have a prayer requests for all of you though. I ask that you pray that God will help me understand the situation these victims are in so that I can help them, give me the desire to stick through if this is what I'm called to do, help me understand why I'm here, and finally I ask that you pray that God uses me for his will.