Fighting the battle alone.

Wow seems like i havent been here forever. Life is so crazy! Its hard keeping up with this between work school family friends mime church...and tests. I guess right now im realy just trying to find who i am. I have lost myself. I feel like half the time when im with my friends im not there..u know what i mean? am i the only one going through this or has? i dont have anyone to turn too. You see i have always been the person someone runs up to and tell all your problems to. I just wish that all the people i have helped in the past would be there for me when i need them. I just dont know how to put in words how lost i am. My family right now is at a very crazy point. I dont even talk to my one of my brothers anymore. I dont want anything to do with one of my sisters. My mom has a heart problem. My dad works 2 jobs so we can keep living the life we do. I dont see my sister and niece that often even though they live 2 mins away. My grandpa is getting sicker by the day. I feel so lost!!! WHAT DO I DO?? not only in real life have i lost myself but spiritually i have lost my faith. I have no clue where i stand with god. Its so hard to trust someone u cant physically see. I feel like he doesnt answer my prayers ever...i want to be closer with him but....i guess im just giving up...i mean what else is there to do....