Pondering

Well its friday night and im sitting here at home doing nothing wow sad kinda pathetic but im enjoying it...this is the first time since school started that i just got to spend home and hang out with my family. We actually got a family dinner crazy!!! As i get older im starting to cherish the moments i have with my family before i leave after high school.  Its been a very  long week and glade that its done!! Today i was sitting in studyhall with all my friends but instead of talking with all of them i decided that i was gonna sit on the very end turn on my music and read Crazy Love. We have been doing Crazy Love for a youth group series. Now i know wednesday already past and i was suppose to read chapter 4,but being the busy person i am i didnt get a chance to read it til today. Im just gonna say this chapter was AMAZING!!!! I usally dont "take notes or journal" but i just felt the need to for this chapter. This chapter hits so close to me and where i am with my walk of faith. As i read this is made me tear up but of coarse i didnt cry b/c i was in the middle of study hall with everyone. As i read some of the reason for what Lukewarm people act like i wasnt just thinking or myself. I was thinking about some friends that also are affected by this. It hurts me not to know if im gonna be saved or any of my friends. One of the first things that stuck out to me about this chapter was a quote "Do notassume you are good soil." Trust me there is no way close that im good soil. The other thing was the thorns that keep you from persuing a relationship with God. "To much of the good life ends up being toxic, deforming us spiritually." What this means to me is that i need to not have such a crazy schedule. I need to take time out of my day to read my bible and make time for people that want my help but i always say no b/c im so busy. I need to take a step back enjoy life and smell the flowers. See how wonderful the world is that God created. The hardest part was"Take up your cross and follow me." Now this is like pretty much like joining the marnies you dont ask for special treatments. You do what your told and dont question it. This is like your relationship with God. You follow him and dont pick the things you like about his "rules" You are suppose to follow all the rules and not pick and choose the ones that you like. One thing im struggling with is that when everything seems to be going great...something always has to happen?